Yesterday (November 21, 2005), I recieved a piece of news that had shattered my already-crushed ego *cum self-confidence*. It's bad enough that other people tease me about the way I look, act or speak... and this info I've just recieved made things take a turn for the worst in this so-called 'life' of mine.

Y'see, I originally didn't pass for a position when I joined the screening for our school paper but when we had our first general meeting, the advisers decided they needed an Entertainment Editor. Monica, our editor-in-chief, was kind enough to spare me that position so I landed that job. I was really very thankful and happy that time.

As the deadline for our first issue drew nearer, I found myself bustling and tiring and not sleeping and researching and typing in front of my computer just to have some fun stuff to put on those two whole pages that were mine.. all mine. I was tired, dead beat... but I was happy. I've never been happier on a job in my whole life. I remember when I even conducted a poll on what is the most probable reason why the most famous Pinay superhero, Darna, wears a skimpy costume. Haha. My ideas may sound pathetic to you but for someone who's so excited about the mere prospect of being a little part/help to his/her school paper...

However, my most cherished, er- masterpiece, shall I call it?- would probably be the 'Hugger Mugger'. This section boasts of the latest gossips and chisms that circulate the whole campus. So many regular students were turned into campus celebrities by this section, whether accompanied with a bad or good description. Modesty aside but truthfullness abide, this section is one of the most anticipated by the students ever since it was first created. It was practically tradition! It started way back on 1990!

"...I find that I am not competent enough to continue the position..."

When I heard that news, I didn't think twice... or I didn't think at all. I just grabbed the paper nearest to me and started scribbling a letter. A resignation letter.

At that time, I felt like crying but can't. I felt like screaming. I had that brief urge to kick something, or punch somebody's eyeballs out... but I never did. I just wrote, and when I lost heart I sought Sharlyn's help. She helped me compose my ticket to Failuresville.

"...I do not wish to criticize the staff by handing this letter..."

Hugger Mugger will be omitted from the newspaper. That's the scoop. I don't know if it's permanent. What I know is, the whole school's gonna kill me. I've practically broken tradition, and it's fault on my part. They say the reason for this action is because the section's too brutal and obvious. Heellooooo.... This is a blind item section over here! I've seen countless of this stuff over the years I've spent on this hellhole that I call school, and they're obviously more brutal and cruel! And what about Sir Dominic's omitted article? What was it about? "Top ten best bunny slipper designs?" It was that cruel?!?!?!?!

Wait, let me clear something up first. I do not blame anybody for this drama of mine because I know it's my own doing... I do not blame anyone especially the staff of the school paper. Here's the idea: It was our directress who opposed to some *or almost all* of the articles on the already-layouted paper. I just don't know why. Maybe she doesn't like them, who knows? We can't do anything, now, can we? If Queen Mother bellows, everyone must be still. But wait- we're not in some silly mother-fuck*ng monarchy! We're no slaves here! We have our own freedom! Is it not the *FREEDOM OF WILL* that freed us from the foreign invaders during the war? Is it not the *FREEDOM OF BELIEF OR CHOICE* that ended the Marcos dictatorship? Isn't the *FREEDOM OF THE PRESS AND SPEECH* the spirit that binds humankind to the truth?

"...Please forgive me for all the troubles that I may have caused..."

I was about to sign the letter when Jeric and Kristine dropped by my table and caught a whiff of my plan. They read my letter and consoled me. They said that we're in this together... the whole staff. And they confiscated the letter, saying they won't let me resign from my post. Well, I've got an extra letter here yo! But I'm having second thoughts about it... This is where I am happy, after all. Will I just surrender to a Queen Mother and decide to let go of my dream? Argh, this is frustrating. This is my family and friends' cue to enter, I suppose. And as I wait for them here, shedding buckets of tears... clutching the bag where I snuck my letter... I'll think of an evil plan to dominate the Entertainment Section for my comeback party... Take note, I said EVIL... Bwahahaha...^_^

The past week and this week have been fun for me- except for this shocking news that I recieved last Wednesday. One of our friends, Justine, was hit and run by a vehicle (*obviously*) and is currently in Lyceum hospital. They say she's fine now, but will have to undergo some stitchings. We hope for your rapid recovery, friend! =)

Anyways, I finally had had the heart to make good use of my Quizilla account so please visit my homepage here and my first ever quiz "What's your 'Happily Ever After' story?". Also, a big thanks to those wonderful people who gave me Friendster testimonials! You made my day! Kaya kayo, itesti nyo na din ako! Dali! Wahehe...^_^

Anyways, let me tell you about last week's intramurals (don't worry, only the nice parts so you won't die of boredom!). First was when the Salpicado band played for the student body last Wednesday. One of the songs they played was dedicated to my close chum Romeo. Grabe, he was so red and angry at the lead singer Aaron! Wahaha, but that was nothing when the band started playing "We Are The Champions", dedicated to us Seniors! The other years were like- uhm- speechless with rage or something! *Gush!*

That same day was also the Cheer-dance competition. Well, that and the Modern Dance competition were kinda like the highlights of that day's program. Oh, and did I mention that I was lifted as part of our entry's stunts? Wahaha, para silang nagbuhat ng dalawang kaban ng bigas! Hindi ko makakalimutan yung araw na yun: ako, Dennis, Ronnald, Monte, Toph, Charles, Yves, Allas, etc. As in, the crowd went wild! And to think that I was dancing while being lifted! Weeeee!!!!

Nothing much to say because that was the only event where I participated (I'm actually listed for Volleyball, but since they don't seem to need our amateurish talent, whatcha call it?...). Other games filled with tension to the brim were the Volleyball girls and boys championships, and the basketball semi-finals. We won in all those games! Hurrah for the Seniors!

Ho-hum... Basketball on Monday. Games got cancelled because there were slight rainshowers last Friday, so the ground was slippery then. Yay! Extended Intramurals!

And as for this week... well, it was only fun because there were lots of food at home and because we *students* really need this Sem Break! I literally stuffed myself with Chocolate cake, Brazo de Mercedes, Spaghetti, Rice Cakes, Chicken, Pizza, Ensaymada... hungry yet? Hehehe...=)

Currently listening to: "Out of my League" by Stephen Speaks. I mish my Tweety na...

And speaking of Tweety... RONNALD ALAN JOE FERRER PEREZ! San mo tinago yung Tweety bird kooo!! Putik, tagal ko nang nde nayayakap yun! Wahehe...=)

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